Wednesday, February 25, 2009



April 12, 1999 to February 25, 2009.


What are we but a culmination of our experiences? What we have seen, where we have been, what we have done, what we have said. This is who we become. These are our virtues, our morals, and our mistakes. Our experiences teach us, they teach others, and help us teach.

How unfortunate would it be to lose memory. What are we then? We become a body who is experiencing, yet does not experience. How can you experience without memory? It all goes to naught.

Experiences shape us.

Sunday, February 22, 2009


Brandon called me today and said... HE'S GETTING STATIONED IN HAWAII!

I can't believe it. We're not coming back to Colorado. I was so excited, so anxious, I couldn't sit still. I had to tell everyone I could. It's just unbelievable and incredible. We're getting out of this!

Of course, I'm hit with a scared feeling. What will it be like? Will we actually like it? Where will we live? What will we do? It's expensive out there and we're so far from everyone... but I know we will figure everything out and it'll come together. He report November 8th, so we'll be there in October. OMG... so soon.


Thursday, February 19, 2009

BJ :(

My mom might have to put down our beagle, BJ. He has some growths on his legs and can barely move. It's so bad but inevitable i guess...

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

North Dakota

Thursday: I left straight from ROTC lab at the Air Force Academy and headed up to Jenny's house. There, I changed, and then we hit the road! We drove for a few hours until north of Cheyenne in Glendo we hit this massive snowstorm out of nowhere. It totally sucked! So we stopped in Glendo and stayed at a cute, but expensive, motel.

Friday: That morning we woke to Wyoming still snowing and inches of snow on Jenny's car. We contemplated going back but decided to truck through, luckily! It was snowing for the most part of Wyoming and the roads were crappy, so we drove slowly. Once in South Dakota we hit the Black Hills, where it was even suckier. It was pretty, but long. Once out of the Black Hills it was much nicer and the snow was going away. It took forever to go through the rest of South Dakota and all the way across North Dakota. We got to Shannon's around 8pm. It was nice!

Saturday: Valentine's Day, and also Grant's 1st birthday! We spent most of the day relaxing, really. Playing with the boys and riding the snowmobile. I tried to do a u-turn on the snowmobile but almost got stuck. I was terrified it was about to fall over! Blake was pretty chill though, haha. After that the boys took a nap and we played Wii Fit. At 6 Bob's family came over for the party! Shannon had made a wonderful turkey dinner, it was great. We ate cake, opened presents, had some fun!

Sunday: Us girls headed to Fargo for the afternoon! We shopped and had lunch and enjoyed our time without the babies. I went to the Verizon Store to get a car charger and my cashier was from Colorado Springs, of all places! So he gave me a discount. We got home and spent more time with the boys before going to bed.

Monday: We woke up early and hit the road by 7:20am. I guess we had taken the longer way, so Bob gave us directions for the right way, and it cut off like 2 hours from our trip. Very welcome! We got to Denver at about 7:30pm our time (so it would be 8:30pm Shannon's time), and then I headed straight home. I felt well enough until I hit the road, and realized how exhausted I was. But I pushed through and got home at almost 9. I unpacked and went to bed!

Today I'm feeling all out of sorts. I almost lost my phone, and then I almost lost my wallet. I've just been absentminded and muddled in the brain. I think it's because my routine was changed and now I'm trying to catch up! I've also become stressed since getting home because of the work I still need to do. It's amazing! Now I'm watching a movie and trying to get myself back into the routine... before I mess it up when I go to Georgia!


Friday, February 6, 2009

What a wonderful world...

I'm having a good morning. I really am. Usually after PT tests I am depressed because I didn't do so good! I mean, I didn't pass the run, and I didn't make my goal of under 20... but still. I did the 2 mile in 20.27. I think that's pretty good for someone who has been injured for a long time. The Colonel even said I'm a month ahead than he thought I was, which made me feel great. Now I just need to run run run!

I also got an E evaluation during my STX lane yesterday. I got a ton of compliments. I didn't expect to get an E! I was so happy.

Hopefully the day continues to be good!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

One of Those Days

It's one of those days again.
I look at your picture with a heavy heart.
What world are we living in, what world is this?
That we are constantly apart.

It's one of those days again.
We speak to each other, nothing at all.
I have so much to say, to speak to you.
I wait anxiously for your call.

It's one of those days again.
Tears roll down my cheek.
I wish we could be close once more.
Even if for a week!

It's one of those days again.
But it's just like every other day.
My heart heavy, my eyes wet, no matter.
I will love you forever and always.