Sunday, June 20, 2010

Emotional Wreck

That's me!

Someone told me long ago, there's a calm before the storm.
I know. It's been coming for some time.
When it's over, so they say. It'll rain a sunny day.
I know. Shinin' down like water.

Of course, this song comes on as we're driving home from seeing Get Him to the Greek and I'm being an emotional wreck. Seriously, don't know what's wrong with me. Ok, I do. Brandon is deploying. But goodness, I didn't think it was affecting me like this! I was going on my merry way, getting ready, and just recently I've been just wanting to cry and break down. I've been moody and snappy too.

So as we're driving home, I'm just filled with this sense that I'm going to cry. I'm giving excuses not to because really, I just don't like crying. "The gate guard will think something is up..." "My face will be all red and puffy!" "I don't want to be snotty...". I didn't cry too much, some tears got out. I told Brandon I wish I had some hormonal excuse to why I was crying so much lately, and being sorta mean too, but really, I don't. Bleh.

It'll go away soon! I don't want to be like this forever!


The Cochran Family said...

hmm sick and moody.... ;) lol I know what u mean tho we watched Brothers at War last night and I was trying to keep myself from crying, mainly I was telling myself I didnt want James to see me cry (which is weird b/c usually I dont care), guess Im just trying to be strong for him!

Marissa said...

I went through that too....It'll pass. Let me know if you need anything!!

ThinkFeminist said...

Oh sorry. I broke down when I heard my husband was going to be gone till Nov for training. I dont know if I can handle deployments well at all.

Feel free to talk to me if you need to talk. I am a new Army wife. My husband is away to Basic Training and then off to Officer Candidate School. I am new to this way of life, but I am trying to adjust. Thanks to all the military spouse blogs like yours that I have found. Hopefully, I wont pull my hair out before he is back in my arms -:) Now following your blog!

Musings Of An Army Wife

Catherine Saleck said...

I'm sorry you're feeling down... I hope it will pass for you quickly. If you need anything at all, even just to chat, I'm here for ya.